It’s been a little under a year since I posted, and I have some life updates, but more importantly I have some thoughts I want to express. Biggest life update is work going well for me. I have a new role/project to work on but also new challenges. Moving my career forward has been a goal of mine, but I’m so leery of the the corporate world being a black woman. Having been talked to about my attitude when it is anything less than “bubbly” “happy” or “big” I dread the corporate ladder climb. That’s a topic for another day, so let’s get back to it. I’m stressed with the tight timelines, but I’m happy to push my comfort zone especially when I can use the skills I’m actively pursing. Professionally I feel like I’ve hit a stride of progress, and headed towards more promotions. I’m excited to say the least, but nervousness goes without saying.

Moving on…my next update is a little too personal for the internet these days, but I just want to touch on the fact that I am very much in love, very much happy, and not to be played with lol

My mental health has had some hits, but it has also had some healing. Working through traumas, actively choosing happiness, and navigating my temper has honestly been the theme for the age 35. I don’t get to talk to a therapist like I would like to, but I have found resources that support me for the time being. My biggest goal for this year is to find the right therapist for me.

With that being said, life is absolutely life-ing right now and that’s okay for the time being. I’d love to get a better balance with work and my love, but I think if I want to achieve some of my goals I have to figure out what’s worth sacrificing and what’s worth the fight.

My life is blessed and sometimes quite honestly I feel bad about that because of how fucked up the world is right now. Finding it hard to be happy for my blessings knowing how it can all be taken away in an instant because some white man that has barely touched a woman keeps making decisions that affect my life. But I digress, because my soapbox was ready to be pulled out and I don’t want to get too side tracked.

Being trapped in a place of I’ve never experienced a peace like the one I’m currently living, so is it truly okay for me to exhale and relax? I want to have faith in this reality of calm, but something about chaos is so comforting. Yes, I am fully aware that is a problem, but healing is a journey and not a destination…sue me. Being happy with work, love, life, and family seems too good to be true, but I also want to trust the process on this one and enjoy the time I’m having.

I’ll leave with these words…Drink your water, eat good meals, and don’t forget to love on yourself <3